I'm so Blessed!!

I'm so blessed for having so many great friends who cares so much bout me!!!

Nothing matters anymore now....as I have my mom and "bestest" girlfriends with me...giving me all the support i need!!!

I love them all!!!! without them...I don't think I can pull myself out from where I am!

Confused

I'm feeling really confused right now...my emotions have been on a roller coaster ride for the past couple of weeks...when things were going downhill and when i was expecting for the worst to come...all of sudden...i was given a hope...i am still not sure if things will work out...i'm willing to give it a try...

I need to constantly tell myself to look at the positive side...i have not managed to do that...:(

I felt that I'm battling with myself...there are 2 sides of me...the good and bad...one moment i'm feeling all positive...next i'm feeling so negative of how things are gonna turn out to be.

All i need is some form of love and care from him...to show that he's sincere and committed in this relationship. All i want is for us to be able to communicate more just like how we were last time...

Things are really awkward now...we are like strangers...i don't like this kind of feelings at all!

I'm back....

Another…”after-so-long” post…I was contemplating whether to delete or to continue keeping this blog…as I am still unsure if I will be that hardworking in updating this blog…

But after much thought…I’ve decided to keep this blog…

So many things have happened since February till now….

This is not a good year for me…earlier of this year…I’ve had some conflicts with my previous employer, resulted in me tendering my resignation in 24hours…and I was out of job for 3 months and in between I was doing some part time jobs.

That was the most torturous 3 months in my life…everything seems to be going downhill…I was almost hit with depression…not a single night that I went to sleep without crying…

And during this time…I learnt that no matter how hard it is…family and dearest friends are my pillar of strength…they were there for me all the time…and I could not express how grateful I am to them…

I’m thankful that I’ve found myself a job now…my new colleagues are great people to work with.

I’m now hoping for better days to come…and I’m hoping that I’ll be much stronger and positive in dealing with whatever problem I encounter from now on…