Yesterday...

Yesterday - Leona Lewis

I just cant believe your gone,
still waiting for morning to come,
when i see if the sun will rise,
in the way that your by my side,
oooo where we had so much in store,
tell me what is it all reaching for,
when were through building memories
I’ll hold yesterday in my heart,
in my heart
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they can take the music that we’ll never play,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that we’ll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday
you always choose to stay,
i should be thankful for everyday,
heaven knows what the future holds,
or least where the story goes,
i never believed until now,
i know I’ll see you again I’m sure,
no its not selfish to ask for more,
one more night one more day
one more smile on your face
but they cant take yesterday,
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they take the music that we’ll never play,
all the broken dreams take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that we’ll never know,
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday.
I thought our days would last forever,
but it wasn’t our destiny,
coz in my mind we had so much time,
but I was so wrong,
no I can believe me i can still find the strength
in the moments we made
I’m looking back on yesterday
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they take the music that we’ll never play,
all the broken dreams take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday,
they can take the future that we’ll never know,
they can take the places that we said we will go,
all the broken dreams,
take everything,
just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday.

Mixed Feelings....

sitting here staring blankly at the screen...

wanted to vent out my feelings...but i just don't know what exactly i'm feeling right now...

i'm so tired...

all i want is for all that have happened to END today...

i'm hoping for a better tomorrow...

i just can't go through this for one more day...

all i want is a simple and happy life...

i don't want to go through all this again..never...

enough of broken heart...

it's time to pick up the broken pieces...and start anew...

i don't know if "you" will be reading this...but all i want you to know is i'm hoping for a new start...a new beginning for both of us...

let just end this chapter and start a new chapter in our life...

Fear

can't sleep... :(

kept thinking bout him...

i want to see him so badly...

i don't know why i'm having this FEAR feeling in me...

it's killing me that i'm not able to see him...not able to call him...not able to message him...

Pressure...

i'm beginning to feel the pressure he's getting..

pressure from the parents..

the parents might not now exactly what is going on..whatever it is i just hope that they will at least give him some time and freedom at the moment..to let him settle things that he need to settle..

i have faith in him..and i believe that after all this..things will definitely get better

If only the parents understand this..things will be less complicated..

My Long and "Not So Lonely" Weekend....

i was actually dreading for this long weekend...but so far it was not that bad...

met up with Jane and Nicole last night for dinner..had a great time catching up with them...

and I had a great time today catching up with Janice...

went to midvalley for lunch...spent some time shopping...

got a zippo lighter for him..engraved his name on it...not that i'm encouraging him to smoke more..but i thought of getting him something that he will use everyday and that can remind him of me..

i'm gonna catch up with the other Janise tomorrow...gonna have lunch together and shopping again! we are gonna scout around hartamas and bangsar to shop! probably will have dinner at KLCC with mom after that...

sunday's plan is to catch up with wendy...

it's great to have some girly time with my girlfriends...but yet i'm not feeling that happy...

i guess it's because that's not how i want to spend my long weekend...

i wish i can spend this long weekend with him...

i miss him...so badly...

Soul Mate...

Soul mates are people who bring out the best in you...

They are not perfect but are always perfect for you...

3rd Party...

why do i feel like i'm the 3rd party...

why?? why do i have such a feeling??

don't like this feeling at all...